Shouldn’t have opened that folder.
Shouldn’t have double-clicked those images.
Shouldn’t have subjected myself
to that filth,
that desperation,
that humiliation.

I didn’t expect it to consume me
not at that age.
I didn’t expect it to become
something of regret.

Years of embarrassment.
Years of feeling guilty.
Years of feeling low.
Years of feeling worthless.

Negating
not only myself,
but thousands of others as well.
All starting with opening a folder.
Double-clicking an image.

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